I want to go to Boot Camp...no, I NEED to go to Boot Camp. Is that weird?

I want someone to pour water on me to get me out of bed, force me to take cold showers, make me run 5 laps, do all tis physical training, wear me down, dn't let me sleep until midnight, ten wake me up at three am to clean he bathroom, and i wat them to yell and scream and even if i break down crying they won't let up they still get me in shape and do all that even if I say stop and if I refuse they use pohysical force. Why? Because in other things, I have willpower, but to get in shape, I have none. I want to, but I can't. I need someone, someone there well, idk...ugh. Do yo know what I mean? Ugh. Is that weird of me to say that? Or should I just go to the gym and just get it over with? Cuz like I have a gym membership and everything, but idk...I need to beable to run and get in shape and all for drumcorps but I'm not doing it and I'm just wondering if boot camp would do it. And if so, where woul I find one in So Cal?