Please help with this..I just don't know what to do anymore!!!?

Okay, so I asked a question previously about who wants more you or your dh or significant other? About everyone responded they do, meaning the female. I don't get it. Where do you get your drive from. I have probably about one good week out of the month...that's right the month. Where is my drive. When I don't want to do it... I DON'T WANT TO DO IT. It's almost like I get repulsed when he wants to and I feel like I'm being a slave to him which disgusts me. It's actually really weird how disgusted I get when I don't want it. We've talked to a counselor, and yea the whole childhood problems came up yada yada yada... but it's my husband, it's not my childhood. What the hell. I just want to be normal! My husband has been very, very, beyond very understanding of my issues and he always says why can't you see me for me. I'm not all these other guys out there that hurt children or women. I just clify men and can't get out of that clification. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if anyone has understood what I've said but the other day my husband told me that he can't take the random , he needs it and that he has started looking at other women in a ual manner. I don't know, I'm lost. What do I do?